This kind of sounds like how I was after Sophomore year, when I didn't want to go back to school. Essentially, that was the first indication that I didn't want to be an engineer and considering what makes me happy now? I should have listened to that.
Granted, I have no idea what form my life would have taken had I listened to that, but it sounds like what you've been doing in Btown has made you happy. Which your higher order "achieving" brain is probably arguing with you about.
Frankly, Engineering School is not very friendly to the different types of kids. Which is what made me so miserable and then made me realize I was much happier in Design and then now I'm ridiculously happy in school and home life.
Maybe you need to reassess why you are in school, and if you actually want it. If you don't, well, maybe you need a break. Maybe you need to work a simple job and figure shit out. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I really sincerely wish I had given myself permission to do that, I would have saved about two years of floundering and a lot of angst doing that. Cause it's not failure to quit something you hate, it's only failure to keep doing something you hate.
I hope the angst of moving is ok, and if you need anything else, lemme know.
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Date: 2013-08-14 01:50 am (UTC)Granted, I have no idea what form my life would have taken had I listened to that, but it sounds like what you've been doing in Btown has made you happy. Which your higher order "achieving" brain is probably arguing with you about.
Frankly, Engineering School is not very friendly to the different types of kids. Which is what made me so miserable and then made me realize I was much happier in Design and then now I'm ridiculously happy in school and home life.
Maybe you need to reassess why you are in school, and if you actually want it. If you don't, well, maybe you need a break. Maybe you need to work a simple job and figure shit out. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I really sincerely wish I had given myself permission to do that, I would have saved about two years of floundering and a lot of angst doing that. Cause it's not failure to quit something you hate, it's only failure to keep doing something you hate.
I hope the angst of moving is ok, and if you need anything else, lemme know.