This week...
Feb. 21st, 2013 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jynx_tsilevonI don't really know what to do with myself.
I have four exams this week. I have already taken one on Tuesday. I have one in thirty minutes, another tomorrow, and the last is online. I'm not worried about the last one.
On top of the "let's have all of your exams in one week" stuff, which is very common so I shouldn't complain, but...well Monday was Monday. It wasn't good, it wasn't terrible. It was just Monday.
Tuesday sucked. Ask Drakon about it. It sucked BEFORE I went and took my test. And then I took my test. Tuesday made me cry in public, cry in private, and somehow convinced my counselor that I was having suicidal ideation simply from telling him how my day was. It sucked that bad.
Wednesday (Yesterday) was meh. I spent the whole day in anxiety...and found the LBGTQ center on campus. The anxiety came from having to bring up the issues with my organization again, because even though the student activities office is working on it, I wanted personal help. So I had to bring it up again. And continue thinking about retaliation. I know I'm "protected" from retaliation but...yeah anyway.
Oh and I got rejected from another job. Go figure.
And we're at today now. Today I go to get my clothes from my Tailor (yay dysmorphia!!) and go to the organization meeting I don't want to go to (yay inadequacy!!).
Good things about this week:
Came out to my RA about my sexuality and identity because I needed help and needed to talk to a physical person and I couldn't make up excuses to send her away anymore. She's gonna help me out (Yay!) by connecting me to a ResHall Liaison from CAPS (another, specialized, counseling service) to just talk to. She's also going to help me do a PRIDE board for Gaypril...And, if I change my name (or gender), she's going to support me (and make sure it gets updated on my nameplate).
I met the only other OUT Ace on campus. They're nice! And having the same issues as me. Go figure.
Thanks to the LBGTQ center, I am also meeting with a member of the Trans* Support group out here. I might start going to it. If not just for me, to learn how to be a better ally.
I have four exams this week. I have already taken one on Tuesday. I have one in thirty minutes, another tomorrow, and the last is online. I'm not worried about the last one.
On top of the "let's have all of your exams in one week" stuff, which is very common so I shouldn't complain, but...well Monday was Monday. It wasn't good, it wasn't terrible. It was just Monday.
Tuesday sucked. Ask Drakon about it. It sucked BEFORE I went and took my test. And then I took my test. Tuesday made me cry in public, cry in private, and somehow convinced my counselor that I was having suicidal ideation simply from telling him how my day was. It sucked that bad.
Wednesday (Yesterday) was meh. I spent the whole day in anxiety...and found the LBGTQ center on campus. The anxiety came from having to bring up the issues with my organization again, because even though the student activities office is working on it, I wanted personal help. So I had to bring it up again. And continue thinking about retaliation. I know I'm "protected" from retaliation but...yeah anyway.
Oh and I got rejected from another job. Go figure.
And we're at today now. Today I go to get my clothes from my Tailor (yay dysmorphia!!) and go to the organization meeting I don't want to go to (yay inadequacy!!).
Good things about this week:
Came out to my RA about my sexuality and identity because I needed help and needed to talk to a physical person and I couldn't make up excuses to send her away anymore. She's gonna help me out (Yay!) by connecting me to a ResHall Liaison from CAPS (another, specialized, counseling service) to just talk to. She's also going to help me do a PRIDE board for Gaypril...And, if I change my name (or gender), she's going to support me (and make sure it gets updated on my nameplate).
I met the only other OUT Ace on campus. They're nice! And having the same issues as me. Go figure.
Thanks to the LBGTQ center, I am also meeting with a member of the Trans* Support group out here. I might start going to it. If not just for me, to learn how to be a better ally.
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Date: 2013-02-22 02:13 am (UTC)You have my sympathy on the sucktastic portions.